The moments when I'm with you, I feel like I'm in heaven.
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
There's Something I Want To Let Know Before I Let You Go
Before I start, this post would be messy, broken english, bored, lame but its all my heart want to tell you...and forgive me for writing this post and hope that it won't affect our friendship.... i'm sorry =)
Well, I guess I'll start from the day when I met her. It was a few years back, I added her on Facebook. And I started to chat with her, soon I was lucky enough to get her number. So we text each other for a short few months, and right then she left to Australia to study. Before she left, I actually had feelings on her but I'm afraid that the feelings are not accurate thus I didn't put much effort on it or even think about it. We never talk to one another or she don't even look at me. Right then, 2013. She came back to Malaysia because she is having the summer breaks. And I was so shocked that she asked me out. Oh well, I was a bit nervous. I know it sounds stupid but indeed I really feel shocked and surprised. I even thought she was kidding with me. After a few days, my CF had an outing so I just asked her out and having an impossible mind that she wouldn't join us but I had no idea that she will say okay. That time, I feel extra nervous and like maybe happy? Oh well, that night I slept earlier compare to my daily routine. Guess what? I woke up early in the morning, I couldn't believe that it was real. After bathing and all, it was still early. And I thought I would be late to fetch her. I'm afraid of letting her waiting. But ended up, I reached at 6.45am and she still haven't take her breakfast. To cut the long story short, I'm happy to went hiking with her. I really enjoy just a short few hours with her. Well, I know she doesn't like sport but still we ended up to level five at Youth Park so its amazing. For the first time, my mind was really blank. There's a saying which I found it quite true, it goes like this, 'no matter how well you can speak or jokes, when you're standing in front of the girl you like then you will be like a total dumb'. I had to admit that I make her feel bored. After a few days, I decided to ask her out again. Well, amazingly she said yes. I seriously feel happy for that. Well, we went for movie. But that day, I'm sick. I had fever and also diarrhea. I don't feel well that day. When I reach her house, my body was so weak but I didn't want to make her day down. So I tried my best to act like I'm okay. After reaching in Gurney, we went to bought movie tickets. Well, in the cinema. I couldn't concentrate on the movie. I told my friends, and they asked me to dropped her back and go home to rest. But I didn't want to disturb her while she is enjoying the movie. So I decided to act like I'm okay. After movie, I plan to go dinner with her but I couldn't stand it anymore. So I told I'll be dropping her back now. While on the way back to her house, we had a chat with one another. It was fun but it was really a bad day for me. After dropping her, I drove as fast as possible back to my house. And I slept from 4.35pm until the next morning 4.30am. Even though, I feel it was worth it to went out with her. Soon, we hanged out again. And we had a great time, we went Piknik, queensbay, Dari Cafe and even travel around and chat in my car. Well, it was awesome. Later on, we used Line and Wechat to contact one another. Those nice memories again just a memories. Until one day, I feel that she starting to ignored me. Maybe I'm a bored person and I'm annoying her.
After that, I found out she went out with another guy. And he is her boyfriend, well I couldn't believe but I have to accept. And guess what, that guy I know him. I had heard different stories from his ex-girlfriend and also a girl that he made her falling in love with him. Well, his ex-girlfriend told me that at the beginning of few months he will treat you very nice and making you feel like he is the best boyfriend ever. After that, he changed to another person. He has a bad temper and often release his anger on his girlfriend. And the reason, he broke up with her is because he wanted to focus on studies. Later on she found out that he actually starting to flirt with a girl from another school. This make her feel sad and heart broken. One more weird thing is he can text her mum after both of them broke up. This is so weird.
Talk about another girl that he made her falling in love with him, she told me that he did flirt with her. And soon she had feeling on him, but he didn't tell her about his feelings and make things complicated and caused her become like a third party and she also feel upset and heart broken about what he did. She just don't understand what is he thinking and all. And this girl asked me to in relationship with her to make him jealous, that time I really don't know what happen. But I see her crying and I'm still single so decided to in relationship with her but I hide the post so not much people know. After that guy added me, I just stupidly accepted without knowing anything. In end, I found this story. I'm upset for both girls that having a hard time with him.
Well, sadly the girl that I had feelings with fell in love with that guy. I was couldn't believe that. I wanted to stop her but I understand that love is blind. When someone really in love with someone, no matter how bad he or she is, that person also won't listen to you. She even told me that people surrounding her asked her to be careful and discouraging her. As I stand in her situation, I told her I support her and respect her decision but in my heart I was confused, I'm afraid that guy will do something that will hurt her deeply since she is not around. I'm confused, I care about her. But she just never know that. I even hinted her few times but I guess she is asking me to give up. Oh well, I hope that I make a right decision that not telling her about the stories behind him. Guess I'm total stupid and a good guy that letting her goes. I feel the pain in my heart. I really do not know what I can do. I just hope that she will be happy with him and don't get hurt. Maybe seeing her happy, I will also feel happy? Well, perhaps it could be so. But what if she gets hurt? I will be blaming myself. I'm so confused. I don't want to discourage her and I don't want to see her gets hurt. Maybe I'm selfish for not telling her. Maybe I'm stupid. Hopefully she is happy with him until old. Hopefully, my decision is right. All my statuses, line, wechat, twitter are full what I want to tell her. Well, guess keeping the pain in my heart is worth to see her happy now. Lastly, I'll be there for her when she needs me. Hey girl, just don't get hurt and be happy. Anything just tell me, I will lend you my shoulder to cry, I will lend you my ears to hear your cry, I will give you my love when you need it. All the best, girl. =)
Well, wedding dress is the best song that suite what I want to say to her..............
Girl, all the times we've had, I've kept my feelings wrapped. I'll always ask myself, how did I lose your heart.
Your love was in my reach, but now, far gone. I never thought that I would fall this hard. I was afraid to tell you all the feelings in my heart.
Thinking that if I told you, you and I would fall apart. I hesitated, and now our love is breakin'. 'Cause you moved on and I'm still waiting. Now it all comes down to this, our love was such a bliss.
You've blessed me with the best, so now he wants in your heart. I wanted you to know my heart bled bled for you. But would he ever do the same for you?
Well, I guess I'll start from the day when I met her. It was a few years back, I added her on Facebook. And I started to chat with her, soon I was lucky enough to get her number. So we text each other for a short few months, and right then she left to Australia to study. Before she left, I actually had feelings on her but I'm afraid that the feelings are not accurate thus I didn't put much effort on it or even think about it. We never talk to one another or she don't even look at me. Right then, 2013. She came back to Malaysia because she is having the summer breaks. And I was so shocked that she asked me out. Oh well, I was a bit nervous. I know it sounds stupid but indeed I really feel shocked and surprised. I even thought she was kidding with me. After a few days, my CF had an outing so I just asked her out and having an impossible mind that she wouldn't join us but I had no idea that she will say okay. That time, I feel extra nervous and like maybe happy? Oh well, that night I slept earlier compare to my daily routine. Guess what? I woke up early in the morning, I couldn't believe that it was real. After bathing and all, it was still early. And I thought I would be late to fetch her. I'm afraid of letting her waiting. But ended up, I reached at 6.45am and she still haven't take her breakfast. To cut the long story short, I'm happy to went hiking with her. I really enjoy just a short few hours with her. Well, I know she doesn't like sport but still we ended up to level five at Youth Park so its amazing. For the first time, my mind was really blank. There's a saying which I found it quite true, it goes like this, 'no matter how well you can speak or jokes, when you're standing in front of the girl you like then you will be like a total dumb'. I had to admit that I make her feel bored. After a few days, I decided to ask her out again. Well, amazingly she said yes. I seriously feel happy for that. Well, we went for movie. But that day, I'm sick. I had fever and also diarrhea. I don't feel well that day. When I reach her house, my body was so weak but I didn't want to make her day down. So I tried my best to act like I'm okay. After reaching in Gurney, we went to bought movie tickets. Well, in the cinema. I couldn't concentrate on the movie. I told my friends, and they asked me to dropped her back and go home to rest. But I didn't want to disturb her while she is enjoying the movie. So I decided to act like I'm okay. After movie, I plan to go dinner with her but I couldn't stand it anymore. So I told I'll be dropping her back now. While on the way back to her house, we had a chat with one another. It was fun but it was really a bad day for me. After dropping her, I drove as fast as possible back to my house. And I slept from 4.35pm until the next morning 4.30am. Even though, I feel it was worth it to went out with her. Soon, we hanged out again. And we had a great time, we went Piknik, queensbay, Dari Cafe and even travel around and chat in my car. Well, it was awesome. Later on, we used Line and Wechat to contact one another. Those nice memories again just a memories. Until one day, I feel that she starting to ignored me. Maybe I'm a bored person and I'm annoying her.
After that, I found out she went out with another guy. And he is her boyfriend, well I couldn't believe but I have to accept. And guess what, that guy I know him. I had heard different stories from his ex-girlfriend and also a girl that he made her falling in love with him. Well, his ex-girlfriend told me that at the beginning of few months he will treat you very nice and making you feel like he is the best boyfriend ever. After that, he changed to another person. He has a bad temper and often release his anger on his girlfriend. And the reason, he broke up with her is because he wanted to focus on studies. Later on she found out that he actually starting to flirt with a girl from another school. This make her feel sad and heart broken. One more weird thing is he can text her mum after both of them broke up. This is so weird.
Talk about another girl that he made her falling in love with him, she told me that he did flirt with her. And soon she had feeling on him, but he didn't tell her about his feelings and make things complicated and caused her become like a third party and she also feel upset and heart broken about what he did. She just don't understand what is he thinking and all. And this girl asked me to in relationship with her to make him jealous, that time I really don't know what happen. But I see her crying and I'm still single so decided to in relationship with her but I hide the post so not much people know. After that guy added me, I just stupidly accepted without knowing anything. In end, I found this story. I'm upset for both girls that having a hard time with him.
Well, sadly the girl that I had feelings with fell in love with that guy. I was couldn't believe that. I wanted to stop her but I understand that love is blind. When someone really in love with someone, no matter how bad he or she is, that person also won't listen to you. She even told me that people surrounding her asked her to be careful and discouraging her. As I stand in her situation, I told her I support her and respect her decision but in my heart I was confused, I'm afraid that guy will do something that will hurt her deeply since she is not around. I'm confused, I care about her. But she just never know that. I even hinted her few times but I guess she is asking me to give up. Oh well, I hope that I make a right decision that not telling her about the stories behind him. Guess I'm total stupid and a good guy that letting her goes. I feel the pain in my heart. I really do not know what I can do. I just hope that she will be happy with him and don't get hurt. Maybe seeing her happy, I will also feel happy? Well, perhaps it could be so. But what if she gets hurt? I will be blaming myself. I'm so confused. I don't want to discourage her and I don't want to see her gets hurt. Maybe I'm selfish for not telling her. Maybe I'm stupid. Hopefully she is happy with him until old. Hopefully, my decision is right. All my statuses, line, wechat, twitter are full what I want to tell her. Well, guess keeping the pain in my heart is worth to see her happy now. Lastly, I'll be there for her when she needs me. Hey girl, just don't get hurt and be happy. Anything just tell me, I will lend you my shoulder to cry, I will lend you my ears to hear your cry, I will give you my love when you need it. All the best, girl. =)
Well, wedding dress is the best song that suite what I want to say to her..............
Girl, all the times we've had, I've kept my feelings wrapped. I'll always ask myself, how did I lose your heart.
Your love was in my reach, but now, far gone. I never thought that I would fall this hard. I was afraid to tell you all the feelings in my heart.
Thinking that if I told you, you and I would fall apart. I hesitated, and now our love is breakin'. 'Cause you moved on and I'm still waiting. Now it all comes down to this, our love was such a bliss.
You've blessed me with the best, so now he wants in your heart. I wanted you to know my heart bled bled for you. But would he ever do the same for you?
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
29/05/2010
It seems like everyone stop blogging nowadays included me. I guess everyone has been busying with their own stuff lately. In conclusion, I feel lazy to blog. That's all for now. Love you much >.o
Friday, January 1, 2010
Problems
A new year, a new beginning? It sounds like giving hope to people. I just wish everything will start over again, no hatred, no offended, no argument among friends and family, and the most important is there is always a smile on their face. To be honest, I'm not really enjoy my countdown and party. Too many problems and too many negative side had been show and it doesn't make me feel happy and enjoy it to the max. I just speechless about it. I do not know how am I going to face a new year, and I'm not sure what to do with my new year. Should I change or should I be the same person that everyone knows? Sometimes I think that I'm not belong to my own gang, I just don't know who I really mix with? And many times I just feel lonely when I hang out with my own gang. Seriously am I too good to my friends? They seem like no longer show respect to me, or to them I don't deserve any respect? I can cheer people when my friends are down but I failed to cheer myself up. How I wish everything will just start over again. How I wish I can just lost my memory and just say 'Hi, my name is Aaron, nice to meet you!' Sigh! God please help me! I really miss two person, when I look around they are no longer here with me, I try not to remember but it has been years we be with one another, I really miss them! What's wrong with me? Time really flies. I still do not know and not sure BUT one think I'm sure is the purpose I live is God ! Yes, indeed I have to stand up and continue to move on, I believe my life will be lighten by Him, I can do what God says I can do, I can have what God says I can have! Never give up now and forever! I must show a good example to my juniors.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Good NEWS !
On behalf of Penang First, IGNITE-Youth would like to invite all of you to attend our Christmas Presentation.
ONLY YOU
Born to bring peace on Earth and goodwill towards men
Born to transform and bring meaning to life
2 Nights only!!
17th December 2009 (Thursday)
7.30pm
18th December 2009 (Friday)
7.30pm
FREE ADMISSION!
for Non-Muslim only.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Videos
Please watch both of the videos without doing anything or don't even miss one part of the videos, let just the videos speak to you..! Enjoy the videos, God bless !
Worthy Is the Lamb
Awesome God
Worthy Is the Lamb
Awesome God
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Wow, it has been such a time, my mind keep coming different stuff..!
I do not know why?! It just keep coming! Especially, when I entered the time of worship !
I just feel like want to worship God non-stop! And of course, it would never happen unless it is a concert!
What I trying to say is God really AWESOME! He keep showing me myself in other people's life and at the same time I saw myself in others, a same character, a same attitude, a same style and a same heart! So, until a certain time, I was like really glad because I had grew up! I'm no longer a same old me! I learnt a lot a lot of stuff in God's presence! I learnt english from there! I learnt my mathematics's basic there! I learnt drum there! I found love there! And I changed over there!
Actually right now, I not really understand what am I trying to say! I just keep typing whatever in my mind blindly! I really enjoy the moment when I shared Christ to my friends, is like out of no where a lot of words keep coming out non-stop! And after sharing to my friends, I will feel that God had taken away the burden I had been carried long time ago, it was very tired BUT when I woke up the next morning, I felt so refresh and very an excited heart to do things! Praise the Lord!
I think I should find one day alone in my room and arranged everything in my mind! If not I don't know what am I trying to say and cause everyone blur. My goodness! I'm super tired!
I shall stop here! I really tired to do this! I still got a lot a lot to say! Hallelujah!
I do not know why?! It just keep coming! Especially, when I entered the time of worship !
I just feel like want to worship God non-stop! And of course, it would never happen unless it is a concert!
What I trying to say is God really AWESOME! He keep showing me myself in other people's life and at the same time I saw myself in others, a same character, a same attitude, a same style and a same heart! So, until a certain time, I was like really glad because I had grew up! I'm no longer a same old me! I learnt a lot a lot of stuff in God's presence! I learnt english from there! I learnt my mathematics's basic there! I learnt drum there! I found love there! And I changed over there!
Actually right now, I not really understand what am I trying to say! I just keep typing whatever in my mind blindly! I really enjoy the moment when I shared Christ to my friends, is like out of no where a lot of words keep coming out non-stop! And after sharing to my friends, I will feel that God had taken away the burden I had been carried long time ago, it was very tired BUT when I woke up the next morning, I felt so refresh and very an excited heart to do things! Praise the Lord!
I think I should find one day alone in my room and arranged everything in my mind! If not I don't know what am I trying to say and cause everyone blur. My goodness! I'm super tired!
I shall stop here! I really tired to do this! I still got a lot a lot to say! Hallelujah!
Hoyo?
First of all, I wanna say thank you and sorry to my models !
The previous Thursday, after the morning prayer meeting.
I went to Wayne's house with Adrian and I'm so luckily that I had took a few pictures in his house..
and here I shall show you guys the pictures..ENJOY!
(@.@)
(>.<)
(~.0)
(~.~)
(^.^)
LOL!
The previous Thursday, after the morning prayer meeting.
I went to Wayne's house with Adrian and I'm so luckily that I had took a few pictures in his house..
and here I shall show you guys the pictures..ENJOY!
(@.@)
(>.<)
(~.0)
(~.~)
(^.^)
LOL!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
Unfailing God + Yahweh
Though my eyes may fail me
I will follow after You
Though You promise seems forsaken
I’ll remember the world’s in Your hands
You’ll find me singing
You are unfailing God
Your love’s unending
And Your word is eternal
Firm in the heavens its stands
Though sorrow’s my condition
And pain holds back no blow
Though this be my darkest hour
Your lamp is leading me home
You’ll find me singing
Eyes can’t see but I feel You near
I know You’re working through my tears
I trust You Lord I trust You for You never walk away
Yahweh
Jon Egan started this song, and it was wonderfully poetic, but not finished. We began working together on it because we both loved this idea of speaking the unspeakable name of God. “Yahweh” is the English derivative of “"YHWH,” which was used for the holiest name of God. “Adonai” was the most common name used in its place. However, because of the cross, Christ has become our mediator, our advocate and our intercessor. What was once unspeakable and unreachable has become the name on our lips and the arms that have pulled us close. We must always revere Him in His holiness, but now, through Christ, we have also received His invitation to intimacy.
During the last two years at New Life Church we have had to cling to both the “bigness” and “nearness” of God. His “imminence” as well as His “transcendence” have been so important to us as we have traversed the valley of disappointment and tragedy. “Yahweh” is a song that emphasizes God's immutability and eternal quality. “Yahweh” literally means that He is the Redeemer of all things by His own strength and power. He is the ancient One who is all-sufficient. He is the creator and sustainer of all things. We can trust Him because He is with us from our first cry to our dying breath. We can trust Him because He has always been and always will be the faithful One who is with us! He is Yahweh.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
after everything..i had learnt how to treat people well..
it is like last time how i treat people and now they return it me the same
way..i don't people show me their pride but yet i show others my pride..and i'm trying to change to be strong, gentle, polite, mature and so on..sigh..God i need you to strengthen me..
in my conclusion..i just wanna say i treat everyone equally, fair, and show them my love..at least next time i think i can receive it from the people! Hallelujah..!
it is like last time how i treat people and now they return it me the same
way..i don't people show me their pride but yet i show others my pride..and i'm trying to change to be strong, gentle, polite, mature and so on..sigh..God i need you to strengthen me..
in my conclusion..i just wanna say i treat everyone equally, fair, and show them my love..at least next time i think i can receive it from the people! Hallelujah..!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
This few days, I do not know why or what happen but a lot of things keep come into my mind..is like asking to do something and what is that thing? I, myself do not know either..and that is not the main point..
actually the main thing is I actually shared Christ to my friend after the Thursday night meeting..it actually begin with study..as many people know many students are busy preparing their exams..school exams or government exams either..
well, I asked my friend to help me in my additional mathematics and I offer him a help in his account and through I did not say that I'm good in account but at least I know how it works and so and so..and after we exchanged our knowledge then my friend said he do not want to go home so early..
and he started with a story about religion..and out of no where..I felt so hot and my spirit keep telling me to talk about Christ..immediately I asked him 'which God in this world can die for you because of your sins?' and suddenly I hear no sound then I asked again 'which God in this world promise to give you an eternal life?'..while now I'm posting this up..I feel so..
I shall continue when the time has come..Praise the Lord, God Almighty !
actually the main thing is I actually shared Christ to my friend after the Thursday night meeting..it actually begin with study..as many people know many students are busy preparing their exams..school exams or government exams either..
well, I asked my friend to help me in my additional mathematics and I offer him a help in his account and through I did not say that I'm good in account but at least I know how it works and so and so..and after we exchanged our knowledge then my friend said he do not want to go home so early..
and he started with a story about religion..and out of no where..I felt so hot and my spirit keep telling me to talk about Christ..immediately I asked him 'which God in this world can die for you because of your sins?' and suddenly I hear no sound then I asked again 'which God in this world promise to give you an eternal life?'..while now I'm posting this up..I feel so..
I shall continue when the time has come..Praise the Lord, God Almighty !
Friday, July 24, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
妓者工作 & 仙併仙
妓者工作
一個打扮入時的女子深夜漫步鄭州街頭，一巡警問道：幹什麼的？
女子答：做妓者工作的。
巡警肅然起敬，溫和的問道：請問哪家報社的？
妓女羞答道：晚抱的。
哪家晚報？
妓女羞答道：和男晚抱。
巡警：河南晚報，不錯不錯，我喜歡！
妓女羞答道：這工作一般都是晚上敢搞。
巡警：晚上趕稿確實挺辛苦的。
妓女羞答道：謝謝大哥理解，有空來搞！
巡警：好的，一定一定！
仙併仙
一個男子很有錢，要娶媳婦，他有一位很窮的親戚，實在不願發帖給他，但於禮不合，所以還是發了張帖子，上頭附註：
如果你來，表示你貪吃；
如果不來，表示你小氣。
這位富翁便要看他來不來。
婚禮當天，看見這位窮親戚，窮親戚看到他，便將包禮的紅包給他，就進去吃大餐，富翁將禮打開，發現裡面只有一塊錢，還附了張紙條，寫道：
如果你收，表示你貪財；
如果不收，表示你嫌少。
厲害﹍厲害！
大家該多學學這窮親戚的超高EQ與反應！
不要一時受到激怒就臉紅脖子粗的！呵呵！
一個打扮入時的女子深夜漫步鄭州街頭，一巡警問道：幹什麼的？
女子答：做妓者工作的。
巡警肅然起敬，溫和的問道：請問哪家報社的？
妓女羞答道：晚抱的。
哪家晚報？
妓女羞答道：和男晚抱。
巡警：河南晚報，不錯不錯，我喜歡！
妓女羞答道：這工作一般都是晚上敢搞。
巡警：晚上趕稿確實挺辛苦的。
妓女羞答道：謝謝大哥理解，有空來搞！
巡警：好的，一定一定！
仙併仙
一個男子很有錢，要娶媳婦，他有一位很窮的親戚，實在不願發帖給他，但於禮不合，所以還是發了張帖子，上頭附註：
如果你來，表示你貪吃；
如果不來，表示你小氣。
這位富翁便要看他來不來。
婚禮當天，看見這位窮親戚，窮親戚看到他，便將包禮的紅包給他，就進去吃大餐，富翁將禮打開，發現裡面只有一塊錢，還附了張紙條，寫道：
如果你收，表示你貪財；
如果不收，表示你嫌少。
厲害﹍厲害！
大家該多學學這窮親戚的超高EQ與反應！
不要一時受到激怒就臉紅脖子粗的！呵呵！
女子征婚
一位女子，开出征婚条件有两点
1.要帅
2.要有车
电脑去帮她搜寻 结果:象棋
这位女子，不服搜出的结果又输入
1.要有漂亮的房子
2.要有很多钱
电脑去帮她再次搜寻的结果:银行
此女子仍然不失望，继续输入条件
1要长得酷
2又要有安全感
结果搜出的结果是:ultraman
此女子仍然不失望，还继续输入条件
1.要帅
2.要有车
3.要有漂亮的房子
4.要有很多钱
5要长得酷
6又要有安全感
电脑去帮她再次搜寻的结果: ultraman在银行玩象棋
it sounds so cool..haha
1.要帅
2.要有车
电脑去帮她搜寻 结果:象棋
这位女子，不服搜出的结果又输入
1.要有漂亮的房子
2.要有很多钱
电脑去帮她再次搜寻的结果:银行
此女子仍然不失望，继续输入条件
1要长得酷
2又要有安全感
结果搜出的结果是:ultraman
此女子仍然不失望，还继续输入条件
1.要帅
2.要有车
3.要有漂亮的房子
4.要有很多钱
5要长得酷
6又要有安全感
电脑去帮她再次搜寻的结果: ultraman在银行玩象棋
it sounds so cool..haha
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